When all's said and done..

One by one, the people have left. The phone is no longer ringing and the text messages have stopped coming. Nobody else is asking what happened or how it happened. Everything that needs to be done has been done. Normal, routine stuff. Now everything has died down and I'm finally alone in my room. It's quiet now. Way too quiet. I turned my back for a moment and you've slipped away too. At least now I have some time to collect my thoughts. Except that my mind is a blank. There are the occassional moments where something starts to stir faintly in me but that, too, seems to be quelled quickly enough. Other than that, there's nothing else. No words, no feelings. I know it hardly seems fair, that everything seems stuck and I cannot come up with the right words for you. The right last words for you. This is all I have for now.

I love you too.

If I had only known..

If I had only known
It was the last walk in the rain
I'd keep you out for hours in the storm
I would hold your hand
Like a life line to my heart
Underneath the thunder we'd be warm
If I had only known
It was our last walk in the rain

If I had only known
I'd never hear your voice again
I'd memorize each thing you ever said
And on those lonely nights
I could think of them once more
Keep your words alive inside my head
If I had only known
I'd never hear your voice again

You were the treasure in my hand
You were the one who always stood beside me
So unaware I foolishly believed 
That you would always be there
But then there came a day
And I turned my head and you slipped away

If I had only known
It was my last night by your side
I'd pray a miracle would stop the dawn
And when you'd smile at me
I would look into your eyes
And make sure you know my love
For you goes on and on
If I had only known
If I had only known
The love I would've shown 
If I had only known